Had you met me a few years ago, you probably would have looked at me and thought “Yeah, Michael’s got it all together. He seems to be doing very well for himself”.
You would have been wrong. What I let the outside world see was a very different picture than what was going on behind the curtain.
I was the CEO of my own startup company, but I was bankrupt. I was barely able to pay myself anything and even had to go on unemployment when I couldn’t pay myself at all. My relationships, if you could call them that, were a shamble. I was dating around and trying to find my perfect match, but was ultimately and repetitively wandering into dead-end alleys.
My passion for my company had waned, and it was difficult to get motivated enough to even leave my home. I seriously believe that were I not responsible for getting my son to school in the mornings, I would have become a total recluse. Online grocery shopping was even beginning to look like a solid option.
In a nutshell, I was floundering. I’d lost my purpose.
And the really sad part of this, at least to me, was that I had all of the tools at my disposal to turn my life around. I’d studied with some of the top people in the self-improvement industry. Tony Robbins – I’d read his books, devoured his tapes (do they even make those anymore?), and even attended a live event. David Deida – same thing. Gay and Katie Hendricks – been there, done that. And the list goes on.
So, what was happening here?!? I had the information at my fingertips. I knew everything that I needed to do. I knew WHAT to do. I knew HOW to do it. I certainly knew WHY I should do it.
But… I did nothing.
Until, I started to examine just that. WHY was I doing nothing? WHAT was stopping me? WHERE did all of that training and knowledge go?